A Grief not allowed
I am very sad today, with a grief that is not talked about. It is not allowed. Because I had two loving parents. I am not granted asylum. I am not allowed reprieve. Well...what the fuck are you complainin' about ?? You got everything you wanted. You had so many presents at Christmas and your birthday that it was supposed to buy your happiness. You were supposed to forget about your mother. You had everything. Why would you want more? WE GAVE YOU EVERYTHING.
I had everything....everything but my mother. You just can't fix that. Sorry.
Born with the moon in cancer
Choose her a name she will answer to
Call her green and the winters cannot fade her
Call her green for the children whove made her
Little green, be a gypsy dancer
He went to california
Hearing that everythings warmer there
So you write him a letter and say, her eyes are blue.
He sends you a poem and shes lost to you
Little green, hes a non-conformer
Just a little green
Like the color when the spring is born
Therell be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
Just a little green
Like the nights when the northern lights perform
Therell be icicles and birthday clothes
And sometimes therell be sorrow
Child with a child pretending
Weary of lies you are sending home
So you sign all the papers in the family name
Youre sad and youre sorry, but youre not ashamed
Little green, have a happy ending
Just a little green
Like the color when the spring is born
Therell be crocuses to bring to school tomorrow
Just a little green
Like the nights when the northern lights perform
Therell be icicles and birthday clothes
And sometimes therell be sorrow
posted by Umbilicly Challenged @ 5:11 PM
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mmmm Sarah. I know.
YEah...I read your blog just before I wrote that. I like Joanie too.
Isn't it sad and sick that the two parties to adoption that have real reason to grieve were never really allowed to? You were supposed to be so grateful and loved that you wouldn't grieve and I was supposed to "forget" and go on like it never happened and keep my tears under wraps. Dumb scenario, huh?
Yeah Robin, enough to make one crazy, and then they wonder why adoptees end up institutionalized in droves, although that is often discounted by people claiming that that is just you know, being umm negative.
But maybe it is being positive looking at it, maybe it is positive and proactive to want to raise awareness.
Joy, Both of my surrendered children are casualties of the BSE and adoption...my son most of all. He is in prison for the third time. He's angry and he's violent and I am so afraid for him and, sadly and to my dismay, a bit afraid OF him. There's got to be some justice for him and for his sister and for me, somewhere.
((((((Robin))))))
I know, and the agencies know, and I have yet to see one agency talk about this, I just don't see it, and in my opinion it is criminally negligent.
Funny, I got triggered today looking through some insruance stuff and it talked about paying the medical costs of a surrogate if I hired one, I could have her medical costs covered. As if it was a normal thing to contract to create an adoptee.
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